When I found out, I was speechless; I didn't feel sad, happy, scared, or excited. Then seconds later I knew this was not a good situation and that this forming baby will give me alot of complications. I knew my parents would be disappointed, embarrassed, and aggravaded especially from my father. I was the eldest of my 5 step siblings and 1 half sister, I was supposed to be a role model; show my sibling how successful they can become. Wait until they understand the fullness of how teen pregnancy is not such a good mildstone; since they're too young to understand now. I was devistated; upset at myself for not being educated in sex. I knew I had 3 choices to chose from; abortion, adoption, or become a mother.
I was strongly thinking about abortion, which now I wish that wasn't an option I thought about. I'm assuming abortion is a natural reaction to choose to an unexpected pregnancy for a 16 year old that was still in high school. I then came to a conclusion that I am not going to abort or give my baby to another family, I am going to be a mother. I eventually told my parents 4 days later, they weren't happy, but eventually had to accept it. My mother was my only strong supporter, she stood by my side even though people would start their gossip and not only talk about me, but also about her. I felt horrible, I know people judge my mother for my actions.
Yes, I am a teen mother, but this isn't stopping me for getting a bachelor degree; my son who is almost 2 years old motivates me become the best that I can be with an education. Michael, the father of my son and now my husband, has helped me out a lot also. He is the best father that any baby boy could ask for and he is the best husband, I wouldn't trade him for a billion dollars I wouldn't even hesitate. I hope that my story can help other teenage girls out there to be educated about your sex life; ya ya ya you may all know this but some don't understand a baby is serious responsibility.
In becoming a teenage mother I've had to sacrifice a lot, but all that unnecessary moments that I could of experienced does not matter anymore to me. Isaiah, my son, I want to see his every mildstone. Instead of getting my senior pictures, I want to get my son photographed. I do have a budget to the wants that I'd love, but thats okay. My son depends on me, who loves me, who always wants to be beside me, who wants to impress me, and just wants me to be in his life. All the moments and love of my son replace the other moments I could of had 200% more better! My pregnancy was quite dramatic, emotional, and alot of betrayals, and a lot of people critized me (and still to this day). All these months of becoming a mother has defined me the person I am now and I can say I am happy with it. If I could go back into time and change my choice I wouldn't, but I should've been a lot more smarter.
Now, I can't imagine my life without him. He is so precious and so amazing; the little thing do really count. There has been a lot of changes since he came into my world, but I love every single minute of it even though it can be hard at time. I am blessed with the most gorgeous son in the world and with the most amazing family. For my family and myself, I AM going to become a legal secretary.
I AM A PROUD TEENAGE MOTHER; AND I AM GOING TO BE SUCCESSFUL!
{Love} is the best ingredient of life
Special thanks to my mother, my husband, and mother-in-law
all of you have helped alot for my little family
